Feature Post: I Can’t Say Goodbye…

Saying Goodbye to Your Dog: But, I can’t say it.

For keeping me warm when my toes were cold since I rarely wear socks.
For being there for me when I was home alone; I can’t sleep by myself.
For being so good with all the children who visited; it was just the way you are.
For quickly forgiving me when I wasn’t so patient with you; which was quite often.
For finishing up all the French Fries during our late night fast food runs.
For joining me on all those Starbucks runs, even when you were getting carsick.
For chewing up my favorite dress giving me a reason to buy a new one.
For not keeping track of mistakes, and I’ve made one too many.
For giving me the best birthday gift.

Your name was Magic just like the NBA star. When we brought you home, we called you by a different name, one that is well-known in our favorite Hawaiian vacation spot. For over 10 years, I yearned for children who would grow up and call me their mama, but what I didn’t realize was that I already have a child of my own. In you.

Sure, you have more legs than a normal child. But, you’re still clumsy like me.
Sure, you tend to not hear us when we yell for your attention. It’s called “Selective Hearing.” (Blame the floppy ears!)
Sure, if there was a fetch tournament you’d win last place; you max out at three. Sometimes two depending on your mood.
Sure, you lay around all day and night. You just want your beauty sleep.
Sure, you nearly knock us over whenever we return home. You get excited to see us again, no matter how short of time we are away.
Sure, your tail is the height as our coffee table which gets cleared when you prance by— or become an unfortunate event for tykes.

Bunn Salarzon - adopted dog maile

For being my perfect baby girl with a cold, wet nose, and four big paws et al. I will miss you so much. But, I know you’re in heaven no longer in pain … No more cancer. Wagging your tail and knocking over all the angels you meet. Please do try not to knock over Lolo & Great Grandma up there. (Dec 2001 – Apr 2012) You took your last breath today … You’re in heaven now. An angel. THANK YOU for filling our days with unconditional love. We love you so much. I’m sorry I didn’t say this enough, if ever: Thank you for having me as your mama.

04/14/12 [Edited to Add]: THANK YOU, EVERYONE… For acknowledging Maile’s life. Your texts, emails, phone calls, and comments did not go unappreciated. Today, we scattered her ashes nearby in the Columbia River, the same place where she used to jet ski with us and play with all the kids. I know she will make her way to the Oregon Coast, her other favorite place to be. She was my sweet baby girl with four big paws … I miss her everyday.

  • Shelly - Bunn, I saw you posted this in April and quickly closed the page. I couldnt bare to see you lost your baby girl. You met my baby girl Maui at FIND Miami (who looks so similar to yours). My girl is 11 and getting older by the day :( Its so hard to come to terms with the fact that they wont be around forever. I am so sad that you had to say goodbye to Maile. My heart breaks for you. I finally read what you wrote here and broke down. I know how deep those words really go and hope you know that you are not alone. Your loss has been in my mind since the day I saw she was gone. Huge hug to you. I hope everyday something reminds you of this great love you had with Maile, Im sure she is still wagging her tail at you from heaven :)08/17/2012 – 1:59 PMReplyCancel

  • Tabita Skin Care - i’m sorry to hear that..07/15/2012 – 8:18 AMReplyCancel

  • Rebecca - Oh Bunn…I am so sorry to hear about your baby. I loved what you wrote about her and it made me cry. Big Hugs!05/02/2012 – 6:21 PMReplyCancel

  • The Maile Babysitter - My heart is broken for you and yours!! I loved that baby girl just like my own, we always had lots and lots of love for Maile when she was with us!! She was the sweetest doggie!! Well thank goodess she is no longer in pain…love you guys and feel strong in the fact that you gave her the BEST possible life a doggie can have!! YOU guys were terrific parents to her…xoxox04/16/2012 – 4:19 PMReplyCancel

  • Missy Bachmeier - Oh Bunn I’m SO sorry!!! I’m so out of the loop when I can’t get on my comp, I’m just hearing about this now. Thinking about you hun!! Huge hugs!!04/12/2012 – 10:39 AMReplyCancel

  • Jamie - oh this post melted my heart. im so sorry. this was so well written Bunn, but I am sorry for your loss.04/09/2012 – 7:37 AMReplyCancel

  • Jessica Shepard - So sorry Bunn!04/07/2012 – 7:23 AMReplyCancel

  • Jenny Saetern - Goodness Bunn, tears are streaming steadily down my face as I read this. I too, am a proud Mama of a four legged baby. May you & your family be blessed with peace, love and comfort during this difficult time.04/06/2012 – 1:34 PMReplyCancel

  • Tom Muir - We’ve never met, but I saw this on Facebook and it brought me to tears. I’m so sorry for your loss.04/06/2012 – 9:21 AMReplyCancel

  • Amy Isabella - oh bunn, i am so very sorry. i didn’t realize time had grown so short. my heart is with you. letting go is one of the hardest gifts we can give a loved one in passing. my love to you and maile. xoxo.04/05/2012 – 8:49 PMReplyCancel

  • Courtney - Bunn, my heart breaks for your loss. Prayers and hugs being sent your way…04/05/2012 – 6:02 PMReplyCancel

  • Bori - I’m deeply sorry for your loss Bunn. I know how tough it is when you have an animal you love and cherish so much- they become your child. Just know that she’s in a better place now. xoxo04/05/2012 – 5:46 PMReplyCancel

  • Stephanie Conn - Bunn… I am so sorry. I know there are no words that can help take the sadness away of loosing a pet. Know that I am here for you and can understand the heartbreak you’re going through. Rest in peace little girl.04/05/2012 – 5:23 PMReplyCancel

  • Dee - Bye Maile… thank you for the temporary reminders from your pawnails on my feet. Thank you for waking me up by gracing my face with sloppy kisses and a few swaps of your tail when I spent the night on Mommy’s couch. You were a very sweet and special pup. <304/05/2012 – 5:14 PMReplyCancel

  • Noi Soutavong - I’m sorry to hear that auntie Bunn. This made me tear up. Everything will be ok u know she’s in a better place now.04/05/2012 – 4:45 PMReplyCancel

  • Jennifer Selanoff - Beautiful. RIP baby girl.04/05/2012 – 4:38 PMReplyCancel

  • Bethany Cox - O no! I am so sorry. Pets are part of the family. My heart goes out to you. Looked like a really sweet little one….04/05/2012 – 4:28 PMReplyCancel

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